Sunday, May 27, 2007 ; 10:14 PM
i just did my calculations.
and its 59.5 hours of dancing this week!!! ohmygoodness.
my feet are feeling kind of numbed and can still feel pain with every step i take. been up and about from the time i wake till at night, spending practically all the time in school, it feels like home to me. and we skipped dinner together almost everyday, only managing to munch on the colourful biscuits and strawberry love letters during 5 minute breaks, which we became so addicted to buying from the opposite mama shops. haha. and you should see the dustbins outside the dance studio and the hall. its seriously overflowing with the rubbish that we've accummulated during the weekend. despite working my head off for the past month, i really thank God for sustaining my health and protecting me from any major injuries. i feel that i deserve a good rest and a big feast after the concert. but maybe i can't enjoy that much, for all the study times that i've sacrificed for dance practices, i really should devote all my time into catching up with my work soon.
speaking of juggling between schoolwork and dance practices, i'm really trying my best to cope. and i'm really happy with my recent economics test, even though i did get some hints on it. :\ anyway, that's beside the point. a pity some teachers don't understand it at all. she's always asking me why i'm practising so hard. and i said because there's syf and concert, probably the busiest year for the club. and she asks why should we have a concert if it's gonna make us so busy. and i told her well because the school wanted us to have it even though we're not supposed to have one this year, in celebration of the school's 30th anniversary. the first time we had this conversation, we were alone and she had nothing to say after my last reply. the second time we talked about this, it was during civics lesson and everybody was there to hear it. and so, when she asked me the same question, i repeated what i told her before. and this time, she thought of a reply to my last statement, "then you should have put your foot down and said no [to the concert]. anyway you guys enjoy it right [implying that we shouldn't blame the school wanting the concert and that we, brought the trouble to ourselves.]" i was amazed at how she tweaked the situation against our favour. well, probably because she's a gp teacher. -__- i don't mean to be disrespectful but it's not the first time that she's said things that offended me.
firstly, yes we do enjoy performing. i mean, who in dance club doesn't enjoy dancing and performing and having a concert to showcase our talents? besides, since we're already in it, we might as well do it to the best and have fun, not going up there sulking and lamenting right. and secondly, having taught in that school for sooooo many years, she should know better how the system works. who are we to decline the school's "request" for a public performance to boost its image and reputation?
seriously, i view what she says as an attack, more than a note of concern. as usual, maybe i'm over-reading things again but somehow, i feel that she probably thinks i'm not going to do well for exams anyway. well i'm so going to prove her wrong. the ex dance pres and some of our seniors who were actively involved in the club still managed to get all As for a'levels. well so can i, or at least somewhere there... right? yeah i hope.. :\
okay its just 4 more days left to the big show!!
reverie III: dancer in my heart
31 may 2007
nus cultural centre
8pm
